I removed myself from Facebook a month ago and not very many noticed. I am a little surprised but not really surprised at all in the same sense. I still want nothing to do with Facebook and will continue to avoid it like the plague but I have found that since I was on it for so long, many of my accounts that I need are unfortunately linked to it. Plus, it seems like people think I blocked them rather than the fact that I have had enough with the site itself. I am not that terrible of a person. I figure, if I matter, you'll write or call, away from the social media toxicity that is Facebook.
I haven't blogged either in a while, which was brought to my attention recently. I started school four months ago, and the English class that I just finished was driving me crazy. I just wasn't clicking well with the teacher or more over, her lack of being a teacher. Regardless, I still got an A- on the class. So far straight A's and a 3.78 GPA. Wish I did this well in high school. Now I am wrapped up in Quantitative Reasoning I and moving on from there to QR II, and Accounting classes until I finish.
A lot has happened in a month while not much has changed.
Jeremy's fourth anniversary of his passing came and went, and not without tears. I spent the morning sitting down by the river at the same spot I last held him four years ago. That spot just draws you in.
I celebrated my 34th birthday and found the love and admiration I have for those who didn't need Facebook to remember, whom I cherish daily. The Saturday before, I went out to dinner for great conversation and a lot of laughs with four much loved friends. I renewed my license at the DMV (written test included) the morning of my birthday, did a little shopping, and then had dinner with my Goose and my mom. I worked the following day and was loved by one very special coworker who remembered me. I then did the Brew & View with friends to watch the always great and classic, Wayne's World. And then I finished out the week trying a new restaurant that was on my list; while it's now crossed off the list due to its lackluster food, the company couldn't have been better.
In the last month I have fallen in love with me, in an entirety. Who I am, where I am, and where I am going bring me such amazing joy. Removing the toxic norm of Facebook couldn't have been a better choice. I have gained so much peace in that month that I want to always share it with those around me. Yes, there have still been those hiccup moments, those few that got under my skin momentarily, and those that have forgotten all about me. But none of that matters to all of the positive aspects that I have been able to enjoy.
I needed my 28 day detox. I needed to enjoy my life without the pettiness of others. I needed to enjoy my company without distraction. I needed to feel as close to my brother as I could because it's the fourth year I couldn't hear his voice, hear him say, "Yours is the only birthday I ever remember". But mostly I needed to know that the next 28 days of detox will be just as great. There's a funny thing about Facebook, it seems to breed hate, anger, and pettiness; whereas either I don't see it on Instagram/SnapChat, or I just don't allow it to exist.
God Bless.
And Be Loved.
